I don’t believe in ‘not enough’.
When I was six years old, our neighbor gave me a goat. He was the cutest thing and I was so proud of him as I was leading him home. My parents were not nearly as impressed with him as I was. We had just moved to the country and there was so much work to be done. They knew who would end up taking care of him. What could they do? He was a gift and nobody wanted to be the bad guy, making a little girl give her goat back. What to do, what to do? They decided to do what they did best, talk me out of it. It wasn’t hard. After only a few minutes they had me in tears, begging my neighbor to take the animal that I was obviously under qualified to care for. What did I learn that day? For starters, I learned that I have no idea what I’m doing most of the time and that I need the affirmation and guidance of others in order to make any kind of rational decision. I can’t handle it, I’m not good enough.
I’ve thought about that little goat a lot, lately. I remember looking out the kitchen window at the poor thing tied to a stake in the ground. It crushed my heart to think that he had no idea how precarious his future was, being left in my questionable care. I lost all confidence in myself and my capabilities that day. Can you remember when you lost yours?
A few years ago, Abba started talking to me about the life I should be living and the good things that He paid so dearly for me to have. He began showing me how I had sold myself short.
And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. 2 Corinthians 9: 8
He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Romans 8: 32
No one will be able to stand against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. Joshua 1: 5
There are so many references to this screaming truth, I could fill the page and then some. Of course, there’s the entire eighth chapter of Romans. Do yourself a huge favor and take a bite of that one. My parents were probably right about my not understanding the responsibility of taking care of the goat, but they may have underestimated my capacity for loving it. They were loving people who had raised a loving child. The next step was obvious; allow a loving child to learn how to put love into action. It might have been shaky at first but, remember, love never fails and there’s always enough for everything and everybody.
And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4: 19